THE PAIN OF BEING SEPARATE…AND SPECIALLY FROM THE ONE YOU LOVE

sometimes it happened that your love is some where near you, but your thinking takes them away from you…..its all matter of realization………the sooner you realize……..the better it is…..

even now when i sometimes remember those heart stealing memories
those sweet moments we spent together,
i forget myself
like i was something different before
and now i am different
like i was something bad
like i was meaningless

i have lost it forever now
couldn’t find it again
something i deserved
and now its no longer my own

i wish could have stopped him once
i wish i could have poured my heart out
i wish my words could be heard
without uttering them

i wish my heart could speak
speak all what i felt
i wish i could say all in a one go
i wish it could be understood

i spoke and did all i could
my mind did hear them
but my words were not loud enough
he didn’t hear what i wanted to say

if i could say i would never let you go
and be mine and only mine…forever and ever
he refused to even look at me
am i so not worthy of it?
am i so undeserving that
my follies couldn’t ever be forgiven even once

“”isn’t it strange that when have so much pain in your heart and you wanna talk, the only person who can stop you from crying is exactly the same person who made you cry””

there are two things in life which are even more tragic than death
1. your love loves you and you don’t know it
2. you love does not love you and you know it

some things can never remain the same…

i tried finding answer to this question that why can’t certain things in life never remain the same??
but got no answer to it…because perhaps there is no answer to this question i guess…things which were there before sometime are no longer the same as they were…understood that what has been done should not have been done but now when its over can’t the feelings which were before came back?? and can’t we get back to the old scenario???

“Every time I look at you
my heart skips a beat
I wonder if you know, my love,
that my heart is at your feet
I leave it there for you to do
whatever that you wish
You could take my heart,
and love me,
Or just leave me in this bliss.”

this is something i feel every time i think of some one i love and will always do……..god bless him…

when you are left with nothing to live for

sometimes in life there comes a time when you are left with nothing but pain and suffering……..there are times when you don’t feel like living but you have to live for your closed ones…….your near and dear ones who love you and care for you in spite of all your faults, they accept you with all your follies and mistakes, but you still feel that you don’t deserve to be in their lives because you think they are so great that they have accepted you in their lives and they consider you as one of the most important part of their lives…….

sometimes its out of your control to make anyone believe that you didn’t hurt them intentionally but the sequence of things happened in such a manner that they just happened and you could have done nothing about them……….and even if you could have you would have done it but could not just do that time because that idea didn’t click your mind at that very moment…….

many times, life leaves with no other option but to follow quietly what is happening and just let it happen…because you can’t do anything about it….sometimes you can’t just think of a solution and you are totally blank of what to do and what not to…..

kabhi kabhi chizen aapke bardasht se bahar ho jati hain aur lagta hai ki ye zindagi ka “”dead end”” aa gaya hai…..
jab koi apna chor k chala jata hai aur vo bhi aapki hi galatiyon ki vajah se to bardasht nahi hota…..man karta hai ki duniya ko aag laga do, sab kuch tahes nehes kardo……….sab kuch khatam ho jata hai aapke liye aur jine ki khwaish nahi rehti man mein…………

zindagi mein aisa kyun hota hai friends ki jo aapki life mein sabse zyada importance rakhta hai use hi aap sabse zyada hurt karte ho???

kyu hum har bar usi ka dil todte hain jo har bar sirf aapke bhale ki hi sochta hai???

kyun kayee bar kuch baaton ke jawab nahi hote humare pass???